06-03-2025, 05:30 PM
To say that I am confused on the revelations of the last couple of chapters would be accurate. They have put down a bunch of stuff that I am just not sure how to pick up. I am not sure if some of this is just weird translation, accurate but ambiguous without context, or a throwaway comment that will disappear into the morass, never to surface again.
-- There is a LOT of references in the Annihilation chapter about planets, protective rings, space itself
-- We had a woozy moment some chapters back where the eye of the galaxy appeared again in our vision and we made mention that whatever was calling us was behind it (i read it literally as "behind a barrier" as opposed to "behind it as a mastermind").
-- Caleb was briefly upset over us not wanting to 'explore' space anymore.
-- He remembers that we told him we were 'from beyond the stars'. His dialogue a bit later suggests that he also is not from this world ('We'll figure out everything about this world') but that could be just awkward translation. Or it could be perfectly literal, its so hard to say.
-- Previous chapter(s), the explanation Kevi gave about how breaking the wings on a bird will lead to death, but you can just mess with until it forgets how to fly. Which I took at the time to mean in-general, for the project that the Professor is working on, but now after reflection could be something meant as exposition on the nature of the girlfriend.
-- The weird iteration in a couple of places about the light of the supernova coming from 2300 lightyears away. Is that a significant number somehow? I feel like not, but that it was repeated a few times so it makes you wonder.
-- That Sylus had determined that my evol is unchanged, just suppressed.
So if my home is beyond the stars. If I wanted to use Caleb's evol to take me there. If Caleb may not be from this place either. If Caleb is being re-written when his memories interfere, like Kevi is being re-written. When perhaps memories aren't really memories at all.
I am not sure what to make of this. Am I some sort of entity? Trapped in this place, captured and altered in this timeline, this present moment? Is that why I have the boyfriends, to surround and protect me, my life/power calling to theirs?
I want to ask 'am I the heart of Philos?' but that doesn't seem right. I lived on Philos, I died on Philos, just like I'll live and die here, as I have lived and died before.
My brain and heart kind of hurt, but this is fascinating.
EDIT: its quiet at work again, I'm going to sneak off and watch the CN translations for anything that's different
-- There is a LOT of references in the Annihilation chapter about planets, protective rings, space itself
-- We had a woozy moment some chapters back where the eye of the galaxy appeared again in our vision and we made mention that whatever was calling us was behind it (i read it literally as "behind a barrier" as opposed to "behind it as a mastermind").
-- Caleb was briefly upset over us not wanting to 'explore' space anymore.
-- He remembers that we told him we were 'from beyond the stars'. His dialogue a bit later suggests that he also is not from this world ('We'll figure out everything about this world') but that could be just awkward translation. Or it could be perfectly literal, its so hard to say.
-- Previous chapter(s), the explanation Kevi gave about how breaking the wings on a bird will lead to death, but you can just mess with until it forgets how to fly. Which I took at the time to mean in-general, for the project that the Professor is working on, but now after reflection could be something meant as exposition on the nature of the girlfriend.
-- The weird iteration in a couple of places about the light of the supernova coming from 2300 lightyears away. Is that a significant number somehow? I feel like not, but that it was repeated a few times so it makes you wonder.
-- That Sylus had determined that my evol is unchanged, just suppressed.
So if my home is beyond the stars. If I wanted to use Caleb's evol to take me there. If Caleb may not be from this place either. If Caleb is being re-written when his memories interfere, like Kevi is being re-written. When perhaps memories aren't really memories at all.
I am not sure what to make of this. Am I some sort of entity? Trapped in this place, captured and altered in this timeline, this present moment? Is that why I have the boyfriends, to surround and protect me, my life/power calling to theirs?
I want to ask 'am I the heart of Philos?' but that doesn't seem right. I lived on Philos, I died on Philos, just like I'll live and die here, as I have lived and died before.
My brain and heart kind of hurt, but this is fascinating.
EDIT: its quiet at work again, I'm going to sneak off and watch the CN translations for anything that's different
